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Hi. I failed miserably. And it's only half day! Told her already tomorrow no more nenen, 'at night only'. Earlier this morning despite being scratched (just near my left eye... a very long one) and kicked at, I managed to shift her attention by giving her a large bowl of popcorn. And I hugged her. I read it is not a good thing to leave toddlers running 'amok' on their own. Be beside them. So yeah that was what I did and tu lah, got kicked. For afternoon nap, she really insisted on latching. Same thing like this morning only much more aggressive. Much much more aggressive. "Nak siang siang jugak!" "One only! One only!" with that index finger pointing, such distress. My mum purposely went out of the house to avoid any conflict haha. Okay not haha. She left after saying, "Kesian dia..." and that I wean off too late already. I gave in. While letting her latch, I myself was in tears also. I can't do this.

I can't sleep. I feel anxious about turning 30 next year. Serves me right for reminding Mimey that she too is born in 1989, so we both will hit 30 next year. Entah she have read my post dedicated for her in Instagram tu ke belum. Entah-entah dah tidur. But me? Here I am at 11.26pm not yet asleep. What have been going in my mind was wow I'll be turning 30 next year. About 15 years ago I was in such a state where I struggled a lot. And now, there's this two new people in my life. Iz, my husband and Sofia, my daughter. These two new people in my life. Tomorrow, InshaAllah I will meet more people who just came into my life and well, be part of my life. Family. And, what else is in store for me in the future? My sister in law I met her first when she was still in school, now is about to get married. Time passed. And, what have I done all these years? What will I do more? What should I do more? 30. 30 years of life. Biasalah nak tahun baru. Just that this year extra a b...

Happy 2nd Birthday, Sofia! Yeayyy... Finally, mama can have all the caffeine in the world anytime, anywhere without any feeling of guilt! Hehehe... I chose to let her self-wean, in which I will not offer/ offer less but will not refuse if she asked for it. I know some mothers who used various ways to wean-off their child... Putting things on the nipples so their child will have a bad taste of it... Ignoring when the child asked for it... Simply telling them off when they asked for it... But not me. I tried so hard to get her to fully breastfeed (started fully bf her only when she was 6 months)... I'm not cutting it off just like that. And I don't want her to have a bad memory of what she used to love. BUT that doesn't mean I have to supply as much as before... Hahaha. So yeah, I don't have to control aka restrict my caffeine consumption anymore... Hoorey! Just a slice of cake. A small celebration 31/7. I love this picture coz it got almost everything to be ...

Sofia finally said "Uwan"! She has been calling mum "Uwak" confidently all this while... I just finished praying Maghrib when she came to me. She has been playing with my mum while I was praying. Kantoi tak khusyuk solat... Huhu... Anyway, she came to me to report what she has been doing with mum. Pointing to my mum, she said, "Uwan" and I shrieked... "Eh Sofia panggil Uwan!!!" To which she got embarrassed. And went to her favourite mattress, tilam kekabu, to lie down. Of course I just have to go after her and make her say that again. Hahahah. And again. And again... Hehehe. Mum of course is so happy... But I kind of miss her saying, "Uwak" Hm. We all will miss that. Sofia... In just a few days will turn 2 years old. Her vocabs and pronunciation are very much clearer now. Some words she can say clearly are: mama (duh of course), papa , nenen (haha!), apple, ball, deer (seriously while writing this I was thinking of her A...

Ah living with a kid. There really is no one time solution. They will keep on learning and then you have to find new ways on how to solve it. Sofia. Like any other kid, I think, will always make a mess. There was this one time where she love to take out folded clothes. Like, 2 or 3 times per day at least. Take out and toss. Take out and toss. Read about it  here . I found a new solution, peeps. Yea I did. And I don't have to deal with that kind of mess for weeks. Months. Of course she kept on making other messes but that is another story la okay. I got a new drawer. Hehe. A new drawer, a new way to open. Hahaha! Seriously, I could see her frustration when she couldn't open it. Mama won! But such a smart girl. When I slide open the top drawer, she took out clothes from the drawer below from the back. From. The. Back. Such a smart girl... So I make a point to only open the drawer when she wasn't looking. But really, sampai bila?  Like I said, one solution is ...

How's Raya? Ask Sofia. And her response would be, "Why do we have to go to people's houses..." (while crying) Yeap. She cried at the door and refused to go in. Asked for mama to carry, for papa to carry... A minute with mama, another minute with papa. Okay scratch that out. Not even a minute. Few seconds with papa few seconds with mama. Terrified of going into people's houses. Gosh. And it's Hari Raya! Seriously, Sofia. "Mama? Mama... Mama?" Hear that and I know already, okay it's coming. No need to go inside the house. She's gonna burst! The first house we went was my bestie's. Nope she didn't cry at that time but she was super duper clingy with Iz and I. And when you meet your bestie of 20+++ years, there is just so much to talk about! Especially when you just saw a childhood friend you both knew who omg puberty hits her so damn hard coz man she is so damn hot now. Okay enough. But not fair because Tita haven...

Ah just a normal day... Getting stuffs to cook. Put inside the cart and then line up to pay at the cashier. My mum carried Sofia around while waiting for me to pay. Sofia threw a fix before that by the way because she wanted a book. Okay, other than Kinder Joy and other chocolates, please don't put children books at the counter. Hm. Not that Sofia knew already what Kinder Joy is anyway. #notintroducingtoher Until, some random auntie hugged me from the back. Okay, not the cuddling type la. But more like hugging my shoulders to membawang. Whoever created that term la. Tau-tau je dah hot at socmed... "Ni... Nak bagitau ni... Tu.. Benda tu..." (mouth pouting towards my stuffs at the counter) "Ha? Yang mana?" (Looking at my stuffs.  Got blueberries, chicken parts and some other things la can't remember really) "Tu... Apa tu nama dia.. Daging tu" "Oh turkey slice" "Haaa... Yes yes. Auntie nak bagitau jangan selalu ...