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My first day of sahur as a mother. Went to the kitchen at about 4.30am... The plan was to prepare sahur first while my husband sleeps with Sofia. Sambil prepare sambil curi-curi makan; mothers must be expert at this... Like my mum had once said,  "Kalau nak duduk mengadap makan memang tak dapatla..." Bila dah siap, tukar shift. That was the plan. I just placed a piece of chicken on my plate when my husband appeared with Sofia behind my back. Yes,  appeared . Sebab tak perasan pun weh bila masa bangun ni! I thought I could have my sahur in peace; okay not really in peace because still have to hurry up. But you know, without Sofia. HAHA. In your dreams. She just smiled at me, as if saying  'Oh sini rupanya mama....' I prepared 2 oz of formula milk just in case (I'm still struggling to fully breastfeed her). To my relieve, she refused to. I'm glad, because at night usually she would just latch on. Anyway, I had rice, a cup of Milo, and two da...

On being a mother. A first time mother. I always have that "Oh boleh eh?" moment. Cooking porridge for Sofia, instead of cutting the chicken breast into pieces, my mum simply dump the whole thing into the pot along with the rice. I used to cut them all into small pieces. My mum said boleh... Later when the porridge is ready, simply carik-carik the isi, take out the bones and fat before you blender it. My mum bathed Sofia in the kitchen sink. I bathed Sofia in a baby bathtub. My mum's porridge for Sofia got a lot of things; ikan bilis, spinach, mushroom. Mine would be ikan bilis and spinach or ikan bilis with carrot. Full stop. I planned on frying the mushroom (cendawan celup tepung), but then mum asked why don't I put them inside the porridge as well. Again, "Oh boleh eh?" There are many other things that I just learnt about. Which I believe is the exact reason why sometimes I am a bit slow in taking care/ managing Sofia. Whenever I feel ...

Third time today. She crawled (while I followed behind her, crawling as well) to the drawer and pull it out. The second time she did it she pulled out all three drawers! The third time she only slid her tiny fingers and pull the clothes out. When she first pull out a boot, I swear I feel like pinching her fingers... Geram comel sangat! Then it wasn't cute anymore. Pull out one, leraikan and then letak di lantai. While she was having 'fun', I keep on reminding myself, it's okay it's okay let her explore... It's okay it's okay this is better than her only watching tv... It's okay it's okay at least she's not crying.  Hah. Hah. Sampai tiga kali amekaw.