OMG I just love this kid

Sofia came down with fever the day after we met Zamani. We (Iz and I) took her to the clinic for a shot on her left thigh the next morning. We should have let her rest since she just had a tiring day the day before, but I was afraid we might delay the check up too long. And, we should have let her rest after the check up as well but we brought her along to the market since my mum wanted to go. But we did ask the doctor whether it is okay to take her out after getting the shot. Back from the market, we brought her to KLIA pulak to send my mil for umrah. We were trying to please everyone...

Right after sending my mil to the gate, Sofia started crying. And she cried all the way until the carpark, into the car where I immediately nursed her. Iz dropped us home and went straight to work.

I was nursing Sofia when I realized her body was warmer than usual. Mum came to check and said memang panas betul ni. Her temperature was high, 38°C. Memang panas. Kepala, tangan, badan... And that was when I realized, ya Allah, I really love this kid. After finally getting her to sleep, while praying, I actually cried. Sedih. Even thinking about it now makes me sad.

I just realized I love this kid so much.

Told my best friend about it and she laughed. How can I not love my own child?

"She came out from your vajayjay kut. Okay you caesar but still, near enough."

Okay. Maybe I did love her a lot. Eh apa pulak. OF COURSE I love her a lot. Maybe I just don't realize it. The hustle bustle of changing diapers, nursing, bathing, clothing, playing, and basically taking care of her every single minute made me overlook this deep feeling I had towards her. And when the time finally stops, and I get a moment to think, then only I realized man I love this kid so much walaupun kadang-kadang menyusahkan.

Yes I'm going to be honest, sometimes I do feel like it's a nuisance. Nak makan kena cepat, mandi kena cepat, buang air besar (sopan betul penggunaan bahasa ni) kena cepat. Honestly, memang rasa rimas. But I just get to realize that no matter how much a nuisance this kid can be, deep down I really love her.

And I know Iz loved her as much as I do. He checked her temperature every hour until he fell asleep at 2am. And at 5am he woke up again. Sofia has been a tough baby. Smiling and not crying much eventhough her body was warm... She only wanted to be hugged and carried most of the time.

We put a wet towel on her head and still gave her medicine. Such a cute kid. Demam also cute.