Time out for mama

Motherhood is tiring and so challenging. It is a 24/7 job. No break... 

Yes I love my husband and I love Sofia, but it has come up to one point where I needed a break. Sometimes I purposely spend more time in the toilet. But even so I still feel pressured when I hear Sofia crying, even when her father is watching her.

I told my husband I'm stressed, I need a break. I want to swim. I NEED A SWIM. Alhamdulillah, last weekend I got the break I wanted. 

I didn't change a single diaper, I didn't wash a single plate, I didn't cook a single meal, I didn't hang a single cloth. No we didn't go for a vacation. Going for a vacation would just add more work for me. Packing unpacking, balik rumah nak kemas rumah basuh baju lagi.

While I had a good time swimming, he did all the housework. Before I went into the pool, I told him, "Kalau Sofia menangis, I buat tak tau je tau". Apparently Sofia didn't wake up until I'm done swimming. Lucky, papa.

Alhamdulillah. I feel really fresh afterwards. Fresh for a moment, after that I got so flat out. Penat hoi 4 bulan lebih tak swim. But the feeling afterwards... Fuh. I feel like I just rediscovered myself! Finally I managed to do something I wanted to do. Something for myself.

Oh. By the way a good friend dropped by in the evening with her family to visit Sofia. Totally made my day. A good swim and a visit from a good friend.