On being a mother.
A first time mother. I always have that "Oh boleh eh?" moment. Cooking porridge for Sofia, instead of cutting the chicken breast into pieces, my mum simply dump the whole thing into the pot along with the rice. I used to cut them all into small pieces. My mum said boleh... Later when the porridge is ready, simply carik-carik the isi, take out the bones and fat before you blender it.
My mum bathed Sofia in the kitchen sink. I bathed Sofia in a baby bathtub.
My mum's porridge for Sofia got a lot of things; ikan bilis, spinach, mushroom. Mine would be ikan bilis and spinach or ikan bilis with carrot. Full stop. I planned on frying the mushroom (cendawan celup tepung), but then mum asked why don't I put them inside the porridge as well. Again, "Oh boleh eh?"
There are many other things that I just learnt about. Which I believe is the exact reason why sometimes I am a bit slow in taking care/ managing Sofia. Whenever I feel down; especially when sometimes I feel that I lose to my mum (her porridge for Sofia is wayyyy more sedap than mine; because I like to eat it as well... My bubur for Sofia? Erm. Sofia jelah makannnn...), I reminded myself that I am still learning, I am still learning, I am still learning. And, I did my best. That is the most important thing.