March 29, 2011

Kilang Air Mata

Dear diary,

I've been very generous with tears lately. Wasting the lacrimal fluid I had for 4 days already. Friday, Saturday, Sunday (rest), Monday, and Tuesday. I am now officially a cengeng girl. A cry baby. Sikit sikit menangis, sikit sikit menangis.

Oh my... I've never cried so much in my life! Like, so continuously!!!
Friday, the birthday. So touched that tears came out.
Saturday, remembering the memories, wishing everything could go back to normal, oh yea, cried again... Oh, did I tell you a friend at the zoo passed away? He got drowned at the zoo lake while crossing it to get to the small island. If you're a lifeguard, and your friend drowned. You'll understand how I felt... If you used to take a walk around the lake and visit him at the bird house, you'll know I felt.

Sunday. Because I only stayed alone in my room, my mind was at total peace...

Monday. A best friends' father passed away. A very best friend, here in Shah Alam. It was so sudden I couldn't help myself from rushing to her from the third floor and immediately hugged her. Really. I felt so sad I called my mum straight away. Because I love my mum so much and I don't think I could ever lose her. Again, tears poured out like mad. And on that same night I have a law presentation. Presenting... Ms. Sore Eyes! Yes, mataku bengkak lebam letih...

Today is Tuesday. Tired of crying already but the tears still rushed out. I thought I could hold it back but whoa... It is just so hard la, people! You see, when you're trying oh-so-very-very hard to forget the past and then all the sudden when it just appeared out of nowhere. Aiyo, aiyo, aiyo... Memanglah menangis perempuan ini~
Okay enough.

I found this lovely quote on the net. Just thought I should share it with you.

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A girl wont cry easily,

Except in front of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak.

A girl wont cry easily, only when she love you the most, she put down her ego.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.

Guys, if a girl cries because of you, please don't give her up, maybe because of your decision, you ruined her life.

When she cries right in front of you,
When she cries because of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can you see and feel the pain and hurt she's feeling?
Which other girl have cried with pure sincerity,
In front of you,
And because of you?

She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not because she want sympathy or pity,
She cries,
Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt, and agony have become too big a
burden to be kept inside.

Think about it,
If a girl cries her heart out to you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat you have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.

Do consider it,
Cos' one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "I'm sorry".

To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Don't do this to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your life.
Maybe in your life, she's the only one that love YOU the most.
Remember this lesson..

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Ya... Sedih itu memang sedih.
I really really really hope to close this tears factory by tomorrow. No more crying. Letih tahu tak...


Sophie Al-yahya said...

bash, sabar banyak2 bash. pelangi akan muncul lepas hujan =)

gi teraphy la.. shopping!!!!! (^_^)V

Bashtiah said...

Sophie: Thank you. :) Pasti akan ada sinarnya. Heh.