January 17, 2017

OMG I just love this kid

Sofia came down with fever the day after we met Zamani. We (Iz and I) took her to the clinic for a shot on her left thigh the next morning. We should have let her rest since she just had a tiring day the day before, but I was afraid we might delay the check up too long. And, we should have let her rest after the check up as well but we brought her along to the market since my mum wanted to go. But we did ask the doctor whether it is okay to take her out after getting the shot. Back from the market, we brought her to KLIA pulak to send my mil for umrah. We were trying to please everyone...

Right after sending my mil to the gate, Sofia started crying. And she cried all the way until the carpark, into the car where I immediately nursed her. Iz dropped us home and went straight to work.

I was nursing Sofia when I realized her body was warmer than usual. Mum came to check and said memang panas betul ni. Her temperature was high, 38°C. Memang panas. Kepala, tangan, badan... And that was when I realized, ya Allah, I really love this kid. After finally getting her to sleep, while praying, I actually cried. Sedih. Even thinking about it now makes me sad.

I just realized I love this kid so much.

Told my best friend about it and she laughed. How can I not love my own child?

"She came out from your vajayjay kut. Okay you caesar but still, near enough."

Okay. Maybe I did love her a lot. Eh apa pulak. OF COURSE I love her a lot. Maybe I just don't realize it. The hustle bustle of changing diapers, nursing, bathing, clothing, playing, and basically taking care of her every single minute made me overlook this deep feeling I had towards her. And when the time finally stops, and I get a moment to think, then only I realized man I love this kid so much walaupun kadang-kadang menyusahkan.

Yes I'm going to be honest, sometimes I do feel like it's a nuisance. Nak makan kena cepat, mandi kena cepat, buang air besar (sopan betul penggunaan bahasa ni) kena cepat. Honestly, memang rasa rimas. But I just get to realize that no matter how much a nuisance this kid can be, deep down I really love her.

And I know Iz loved her as much as I do. He checked her temperature every hour until he fell asleep at 2am. And at 5am he woke up again. Sofia has been a tough baby. Smiling and not crying much eventhough her body was warm... She only wanted to be hugged and carried most of the time.


We put a wet towel on her head and still gave her medicine. Such a cute kid. Demam also cute.

10 comments:

dorsett pink said...

everyone loves their kids. hehehe.. Musim demam kot sekarang. FL pun baru je baik demam.

dorsett pink said...

my daughter akan demam setiap kali lepas vaccinate... tapi skrang dah habis dah vaccination period tu (because already 2 years old), dah jarang la demam. kalau tak dulu, setiap bulan confirm akan demam sehari dua sebab vaksin

dorsett pink said...

Bash, can u send your address via my email dorsett.pink14@gmail.com. saya nak send u hadiah yang menang hari tu. Sorry for delay aite

Bashtiah Nahrul said...

Oh yeke.. no wonder.

Bashtiah Nahrul said...

Alhamdulillah.. sofia baru nak masuk 6 months, still a long way to go.

Bashtiah Nahrul said...

Dah send. Tq 😊 No worries 😊

ayunie ramli said...

Aa. Mek pun rase benda yg same. Yela me time kena bhagi bhagi dah. But mek do realise (Allah bg kena jugak supaya tahu) bila mek takot giler time tu (scary kalau ingat balik). Peluk Amani erat giler and she just smile :) All the frighten gone and suddenly rase ok je nk face the things. Ya Allah, ank kan?

Amani had fever also. Tapi takde la every time vaccination. Just demam cause of campak and nk tmbuh gigi :) Yet rase sedih sbb she go very passive that time :(


Your girl memang bambam la bash !

Bashtiah Nahrul said...

Hahahhaha! Memang... Pipi tu semua orang cakap macam pau!

Betul mek. Dah diberi peringatan barulah kita sedar kan... Ya Allah, sayang sangat amanah Allah ni...

Mommy Cici said...

hahaha of course lah sayang. kekadang tak perasan babe. masa baby dulu i selalu macam takleh terima I dah jadi mak orang, lepas tu I macam confuse perasaan sayang tu mcm mana.

sebab dulu kalau sayang pakwe lain pulak hahahaha

the only moment yang i perasan I sayang gila nak mamp- is when dia sakit ke and I macam keep checking on them . bila lah nak balik why lah muntah

lepas tu macam kalau ada orang buli anak i, i turn into super overprotective mommy, pegi jumpa parents budak tu. hjahaha. Rasa nak lindung dia dari semua benda. kereta brake emergency I jadi ala ala superman and lepas tu check dorang okay tak terkejut tak

hahahaha

Bashtiah Nahrul said...

Selalu macam tu kan, Cici... Dah demam baru kita mula rasa kehilangan mula lah perasan eh sayang betul kat dia ni... Sayang dia lain macam...

Setakat ni belum pernah ada orang buli anak i lagi cuma kalau orang treat dia kasar sikit i pun mula nak menyinga...